WHAT HAVE I DONE????

Didn't we just begin??
Weren't we happy all this while??
What happened to the plans??
What happened to the future??
What happened to us??
We were so close,
Closer than lovers can be,
Closer and knitted together tighter than any bonded relationship.
You were my friend, my love, my life.
You were my leaning shoulder and my punching bag.
You were my seconds, my minutes, my hour.
You were my air, my breath and my heart's beats.
You were my reason, my excuse and my issues.
You were my laughter and my tears.
You were my anger and my joy.
YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING.

But where have you gone??
Why has life become frail??
We used to laugh and miss each other so much...
Spend days and nights together, cry together and hit the roads together.
We used to hide from our friends just to meet up...happy days,
We used to teach each other more than anyone could teach us.
We ignored the world and lived in our own worlds.
I miss my dear friend.
I miss my dear love.
I miss your laugh.
I miss your care.

I do realize now,
That I have lost you now that you've gone.

I was a terrible person for taking you for granted.
Twisting and turning and blaming you for everything.
Loosing my head even when you weren't wrong, but you still stood by me,
I took you for granted that you would never leave.
I never realized what I have lost after all these days.
Life feels soooo empty without you in it.
I wish i could have turned back times to realize you there.

I'm sorry for the pain I've caused,
I'm sorry for isolating myself from you all this while,
Never providing love when i needed to,
I'm sorry for being such a coward.
WHAT HAVE I DONE???!!!

My lost to a great friend and love like you.
Burying the hatchet will not be easy...
But i hope you find someone better out there than me.
My love goes with you.